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Several years ago a friend and I discussed our nursing careers with each other.
“I am jealous of your skills,” I said. “You have such in-depth specific knowledge about the heart and how to help people having heart problems.”
Barbara worked many years in ICU and saved many people’s lives. She was an expert in cardiac nursing.
“I am such a generalist,” I lamented.
I was surprised by her response.
“Yet that is what I envy about you,” she said. “You have such a wide base of knowledge and experience. You could respond to so much more than I could. We need nurses like you.”
We both laughed – each envying the other. And each of us left that conversation appreciating our own careers paths a little more after seeing it from a different point of view.
I remembered this story from my past the other day when I felt the green eye monster raise his ugly head within my heart when I envy another person’s deep conviction and passion for mission work in Tanzania.
Then I read about a fellow blogger’s heart for adopting multi-need children.
And still another one working with the homeless in Austin Texas.
Lord what is wrong with me? I do help with the free medical clinic and have volunteered educating and raising money to prevent domestic violence. I teach some small groups and serve on committees. But it is all so vanilla!! Am I missing your voice to jump in with both feet into a service?
I have prayed about this for a very long time and never find an open door inviting me to go deeper.
I don’t think I am afraid to answer a specific call.
Deep down I don’t think I have missed His message either.
Confession time: Don’t tell any one but I used to ask in prayer for a voice like Sandi Patty so I could sing like her on stage – drawing people to God through music. He did bless me with a fairly good soprano voice – not a soloist but one who could carry a tune with the choir.
My calling was to be a choir member.
Maybe God is inviting me to be as He made me – a generalist – one who can do a wide range of support to various service projects.
I am curious – Do any of you struggle with this?