Hear my prayer, O Lord God Almighty; listen to me, O God of Jacob. Selah
Look upon our shield, O God; look with favor on your anointed one.
Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor;
No good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.
O Lord Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you.
Psalm 84: 8-12 (NIV)
I would rather be a doorkeeper.
I wonder what it would be like to be God’s doorkeeper.
To see all who comes and goes.
What they look like and what they carry to God?
I wonder if God’s doorkeeper ever puts her ear against the door and quietly eavesdrops.
Does she peek in?
Does she ever enter herself?
Does God even see her standing there?
Lord, at times I am your doorkeeper.
I stand half way, on the threshold of fully committing to you.
One foot in.
One foot turned away,
set to run back to my wicked ways.
I linger around the edges of Your goodness, wanting more yet afraid to ask.
I wait, but nor sure why I hesitate.
I dawdle with my reluctant heart and stubborn feet.
The Psalmist sings, “Blessed is the man who trusts in you.”
Help me to trust you more – to run through your door into your waiting arms.