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I had an “off’ day yesterday. Couldn’t focus. My to –do list slept untouched all day. I fiddled with unimportant busy work to outright vegging in front of the television.
To make matters worse, I am a “three” on the Enneagram, which means my personality thrives on accomplishments and concentrates on goal achievements. A day of doing nothing looks like failure.
By the time evening came around my internal critic raced at full force.
What is wrong with me?
You are so lazy!
What a waste of precious time
You SHOULD have accomplished something
I finally gave up the day. Take it, Lord, I certainly didn’t use it much today.
Then I heard a quiet Voice within me whisper, “Be gentle with yourself.”
But, Lord, I wasted today. I took Your gift of time and squandered it. I don’t deserve more days or warrant any mercy.
“Be gentle with yourself,” He persisted.
I could whine, feel sorry for myself, and linger longer in disgrace.
Or I could turn my heart to God, listen to Him, breath in His gentleness, and chose to dwell in His grace.
I am so grateful for the God of second chances.
For His almighty love and forgiveness.
For His continuing shower of blessings.
I start anew this morning clinging to hope and letting go my ego-filled selfishness.
A new day.
A fresh beginning.
The gift of unexplored time.
One of my devotions this morning came from Edward Hay’s Book of Wonders. He tells this story:
“At the beginning of the second World War, a large number of bombs dropped by the Germans on France did not explode. French bomb experts defusing them were curious about what caused this malfunction. They discovered small handwritten notes tucked inside the bombs. French prisoners of war doing forced labor in German munitions factories had written on tiny pieces of paper,
“We are doing the best we can from where we are with what we got every chance we get.”
Great motto for daily living and one I am going to follow today.