I didn’t beat my children. I don’t own a gun. I’ve never even been arrested. But an article I read recently made me realize I have a violent heart. The thought made me uncomfortable. As a spiritual director I have learned to be aware of the movements within my spirit and this concept of having a violent heart resonated deep within me. What was God teaching me?Marie Beha wrote “Formation for Nonviolence” in the spring 2003 issue of Human Development. She asked the question in the formation of non-violence where do we start? Her answer is in the recognition that what goes on inside of us contributes to the culture of violence surrounding us.Reminds me of the song lyrics: Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me.Beha writes, “Violence isn’t always noisy….How I respond to others, even to myself, reveals who and how I am. My morning might begin in violence as I smash the button of my ringing alarm clock, resentful of its shrill summons from still needed sleep. Getting into … [Read more...]
God says, “Yes” – Lectio Divina – April 25, 2010
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God. 2 Corinthians 1:20 (NIV)Yes!No matter my questions; the Lord answers YES.No matter my doubts; the Lord answers YES.When I am full of fear, is God still with me? The answer is YES.No matter when the answers in this world and lifetime seems to be no; the Lord is saying YES.All my no’s disappear because in Christ they are a YES.Does God keep His promises? The answer is YES!Is Christ the answer? YES!My words are inadequate. All I can answer is AMEN!Hymn of Promise by Natalie SleethIn the bulb there is a flower; in the seed, an apple tree;In cocoons, a hidden promise: butterflies will soon be free!In the cold and snow of winter there’s a spring that waits to be,Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.There’s a song in every silence, seeking word and melody;There’s a dawn in every darkness, bringing hope to you and me.From the past will … [Read more...]
Savoring the Small Sacred Spaces
I almost missed it.Driving to a meeting last Tuesday evening, I glanced down at my dashboard. The odometer read:99999.As the next mile sped along, I keep watching for the exact moment the numbers switched to:100000.As luck would have it, there was a safe place to pull over and snap this photo of this silly moment.But is it so silly?A small unimportant moment opened my heart to the Important. I paused for one brief minute and thanked God for having a reliable car. For times He kept me safe in the near misses and times I didn’t realize how He protected me. I was grateful for the too many times to count that the car turned over and started its engine – some thing I take for granted. For its heat in winter and the air conditioning in sweltering summers. For the moments of pure pleasure of singing along with the music at the top of my lungs. I thought of the headlights to guide me home in the dark. And felt grateful for the hands that built this car and changes its oil. Pausing to savor … [Read more...]
SPIRITUAL LESSONS FROM DANDELIONS
I am a successful gardener. My specialty? Dandelions! Though most gardeners (myself included) struggle the entire growing season to remove these perennials and their deep roots, God did create these flowers we chose to call weeds. “A weed is but an unloved flower.” - Ella WilcoxThese perpetual shoots of yellow love to grow among my carefully laid out plans, distracting my attention from other beauties. I tend, though, to agree with Eeyore, friend of Winnie the Pooh who said: “Weeds are flowers too, once you get to know them.”I befriended dandelions this year. Dandelions entertained me with delightful memories while I weeded last week. Instead of a nuisance, this flower invited me into the wonder of God’s ingenuity. Remember as kids, taking one of the flowers and squishing it around on your best friend’s face? If it left a smudge of yellow, it meant you like butter.Or even more meaningful - remember taking the dandelion that has transformed into downy seed and blowing on the white … [Read more...]
Don’t Forget God’s Blessings
O my soul, bless God, don't forget a single blessing! Psalm 103:2 (The Message) Don't forget God's blessings! Pay attention to all you have received. Take some time today to write out a list of at least 10 of God's blessings you hold near your heart. Then bring that list to God in prayer and thanksgiving. Tell him how grateful you are for his gifts. Just sit still in his presence, smiling together. Later share with someone else one or two of God's blessings and ask them what they are most grateful in their lives. Be aware. Be thankful. Help someone else give thanks. A circle of thankfulness for all of God's blessings. Here is my prayer based on this Bible passage about God's blessings: Lord you shower me with blessings - thank you. I am grateful for all God's blessings I am nothing without You - everything I have, everything I am and everything I will be - all come from Your hand. I will never be able to count all the blessings. Blessings found in … [Read more...]
The Present Moment
You must have been warned against letting the golden hours slip by; but some of them are golden only because we let them slip by. ~James Matthew BarrieSpring is my favorite time of year. The bright colors, warming breezes, and digging my hands into the cool earth awaken me after a winter of hibernation. Driving home the other evening I noticed the pale hint of green dancing on the edges of the trees as the earth too slowly rises from its slumber. After a few warm days, the tight buds on the bushes in my front yard shake off their drowsiness unfurling their new leaves.Soon every bush and tree will be fully dressed for summer. I can’t wait.But why am I wishing away this early hint of spring? So often I whiz through the day barely noticing the emerging new life until it is fully here. For a change I pause and capture the inkling of things to come.As a ‘three’ on the Enneagram, I tend to live in the future - setting goals and planning my next step. I fail at living in and enjoying the … [Read more...]
Accepting Compliments Gracefully – Internally and Externally
We were in the middle of the grocery store. The elderly lady in her motorized shopping cart rode right up next to my husband and me. I recognized her from my county, but her name totally escaped my mind.“I have been wanting to tell you,” she said, “how much I enjoy reading your articles in the newspaper. Whenever I see your name, I read the whole thing. Just love your writing.”I stammered out a weak thank you. Smiling, I told her I enjoyed my job as a feature writer and the opportunity to meet lots of people and learn new things.We chatted briefly a little longer, and then parted ways.The next day a church member told me she had seen a nurse I used to work with at the health department. “She said you were the best boss she ever had. Thought you would enjoy hearing that.”Wow, two unexpected compliments. Why did they make me feel so uncomfortable, instead of joyful?To be honest I thought, “Oh, no something bad is going to happen now.”Why can’t I just breath in the fresh air of nice … [Read more...]
Doubting Thomas – Lectio Divina- April 11 2-10
Thomas said to him, "My Lord and my God!" John 20:24What a statement of faith - Thomas recognized You for who You are and all he could say was “My Lord and my God.” That is probably all he needed to say isn’t it, Lord?Lord forgive me when I get too wordy, focusing my prayers only on my needs, my doubts, my fears.Lord when I see You - really recognize You - with the eyes of my heart - I know. Yes I know deeply You are my Lord and my God.No other words are neededA prayer of worship and praise - my Lord and my God.A prayer when I can’t find the words - my Lord and my GodA prayer when I am filled with doubt and have lost my way - my Lord and my God.A prayer to whisper in your presence - my Lord and my God.You are my Lord and my God! … [Read more...]



